Chapter Seven: Window Shopping
“So you aren’t even a Jotun anymore?”
“No, not that I mind much. I despise those creatures.”
“So you hate yourself?”
“That’s a complicated matter.”
You and Loki and been driving down the road for approximately twenty minutes, getting to know each other a little better. You found yourself relating to quite a bit of the things that he had been through, even if it was on a smaller scale.
“Are we there yet?”
“No, Loki. We still have about forty minutes until we are in town.” You smile apologetically as he groans. “Well, then I suppose we can make this ride a tad bit more interesting, since you are so displeased.” You turn the knob to your favorite radio station, doing a tiny celebratory dance as one of your favorite songs comes on. Without even realizing it, you begin to sing along.
I’m bleeding out
So if the last thing that I do
Is bring you down
I’ll bleed out for you
So I bare my skin
And I count my sins
And I close my eyes
And I take it in
I’m bleeding out
I’m bleeding out for you, for you.
You let your voice flow with the song, carrying the tune with a lot of emotion. It reminded you of all of the pain that you had hidden away through the years. Whenever you would listen to a song like this, you would feel like crying. Occasionally, those tears would surface, and this was one of those times. Trying to hold back the waterfalls, you stop singing. You look away from Loki, but still keep your eyes on the road.
“Why did you stop?”
You don’t answer.
You still don’t answer.
Quietly, Loki leans forward to look at your face. “_____. Look at me.”
“I have to look at the road.”
“I said look at me!”
Jerking against the wheel, the car makes a swerve as you press the breaks. You turn your gaze to Loki as he goes on. “Why are you crying?”
“You can tell me.”
“I hardly even know you!”
“Is that true?”
I guess he has a point. I have done hours of research on this stuff. “I’m just sad.”
“This song implies the love that I never had.”
His brows furrow in concentration as he processes your words. “You have no mate, then?”
“No. Never have. Probably never will.”
You turn your attention back to the car as you get it going again. Driving back on the road, you sigh. “Drop it, Loki. This subjects a bit edgy for me.”
He settles back in his seat and huffs. “Fine then.”
You just wanted to be in town.